Passion, Hard Work, Determination, Disciplined

I knew I was in serious trouble the moment I realised I forgot totally what it feels like to have fun. Heck, I can't even remember when it was the last time I laughed so hard till my sides ached. This is simply not the girl I was - once so spontaneous, fun-loving, mischievous, so light and just able to laugh myself silly at the silliest thing. I suppose, it is till a point where I don't know any other life, apart from my family and work. Nobody can fathom how it happened. Me neither.

But it just happened. In similar ways like how the sun rises every morning and sets in the evening.

I must admit that I've had a truly wonderful and smashing four years or so. It's thrilling to work in an area that I am absolutely truly, madly and deeply passionate about. Being me, I so wanted desperately to prove my worth to everyone out there, skeptics and all sorts on my decision to deviate from my legal career to this unchartered waters instead. So many people thought I was mad. And never mind those to whom I use to be highly-revered but turned to look at me with distaste and scorn..

My life revolved around work and vice versa; there's no need for a work-life balance, I always say. For I take my work as life, and life as work. Every single piece of work is akin to my masterpiece - it has to be perfected to extreme perfection. Being an enthusiast, I lapped up every chance at grabbing every single piece of work, taking it upon myself and each time when my inner voice chided me, I justified my action by arguing that if I allowed someone else to do it, they will ultimately not do it well and everything will just crumble apart.

The business grew. Versa-Group expanded to areas that mum had always wanted to but never did. There is a healthy cash-flow and when we closed our books last year, our sales peaked at an amazing seven-figure amount - in exact tandem with what I loudly promised mum just two years ago. 

And I'm proud at how far I've come. The rapports, respect and reputation that I've pain-stakingly attempted to establish - one brick at a time. I was convinced that I am the boss and as such, have to work a gazillion times harder then any of my employees.

I was so blinded by the fact that because I am so in love with what I do. No need such thing as work-life balance will always be my retort - for my work is my life and vice versa. Full stop.

But to stop now will mean letting my mum down. It means giving up on what I've been trying so hard to establish in this company and the business circle since I graduated.

If this is the price to pay, so be it. I've never allowed anyone's words of limitations to drag me down. Not this time either.

I am dragon, a relentlessly fiery one - you can't ever kill a dragon's spirit unless the dragon itself decides to do so on his/her own.