"mum dearest,
i came across this quote somewhere while reading the news and i thought of sharing it with you...
"just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, it doesn't mean that they don't love you with all that they have".
i'm sorry that i have my faults and shortcomings and for that reason, i might not always do the things you would like me to. for the past 21 years, i saw how much devotion and love you have showered kk and pp with. how much you have sacrificed for them both. i love you, mum - you're the most important entity in my life. i hope you know that. but just sometimes i get scared that i may not be able to show to you the same level of love as you have shown kk and pp. it disturbes me that i am far from the ideal daughter that you have proven to be but that doesn't mean i love you any less.
and i am selfish mum - i want to be successful in life and be like you, maybe even more, but i am dutifully aware that sometimes this may mean side-lining the people who love me, in pursuit of that goal. for the past 21 years, i have been putting that as my utmost priority but after what happened to me in the past year, i came to the realization that there is nothing more important than happiness and to love, and be loved. but having said that, i'm afraid i may not be able to strike the balance just as you have. and most importantly, i don't want you to be disappointed or think that i don't love you. i will always love you mum, but in my own way. if in future, i do or say anything which makes you doubt how important you are to me, i hope that you will remember these words of mine.
see you soon, yeah?
love,
girl"
i wonder what would be her reply.
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