But I do It Anyways

"You can chase a dream that seems so out of reach and you know it might not ever come your way. Dream it anyway"

when i was young, i was told i could be somebody as long as i set my mind to achieve it and worked hard enough for it. thinking about what i could be used to make me really happy - it gave me the push to go the extra mile and gave me the fighting spirit to overcome whatever obstacles that came my way. now that i am a grown-up, i realize life is nothing like what it is said to be. you can try the hardest but at the end of the day, it is not up to you to control the circumstances.

dreams become a burden as you grow older because you start to realize you're nothing or nowhere near what you dream that you would be. and the future is beginning to look like one huge vacant black hole. you look around at the people who are living their dream and you question what is it that you lack. why can't you and why can they. the strange bit is, i grew up thinking that i knew exactly what it was that i wanted but now, i realize i don't have a clue at all. i always knew that this would happen.

i hate the existence of life crisis. seriously God, i wish you would and could let me know what am i really here for